I was 15 years old, when I got Pregnant.


 

I was 15 years old, when I got Pregnant. I had always loved being around children and I wanted one of my own, so I had unprotected sex on the night of October 17th. I told my boyfriend at the time that I would take care of it, if I were to become pregnant, and I did become pregnant. About 1 week later I knew that I was pregnant and I could feel the changes happening, the only problem was telling my bf and how he would react. So, I told him and he bought me tests and they came out negative each time. But I knew I was Pregnant. During the next 2 weeks of my pregnancy I remember DS kissing my belly and then one night my mom finds out that I happened to be late, so she takes me to a clinic and they had me take a test. The results were positive and I was shocked for I had no idea what to do. They told my mom and she took me to my doctor. He told me what was likely to happen, but I was still scared. I kept repeating to myself with my hand on my belly saying, "I will not let anything happen to you." Later that night mom and I called planned parenthood and made an appointment for an abortion. That morning I missed school and had to fill out the form and wait to be called for a blood sample and ultrasound to see how far along I was in my pregnancy – I was five weeks. Later that night I remember the horrible pain and how I had felt. Since then I have been the same girl as I was before – still full of life and happy – but underneath all that I am hurting. My child would be 3 or 4 years old by now. I need to be able to let go of the past and find a way to heal from the painful thing I have done.