I don't even know where to start with this.


 

I don't even know where to start with this. I guess I'll say it’s been 2 years and I haven’t been over my abortion. I'm still really emotional about it when anyone brings it up. I felt like I was forced to do it by my boyfriend’s parents. They said "you either get rid of it or go live on the streets." I was 17, I didn't know what I was doing. I was so confused I had so much anxiety at the time. I was crying all the time. My mom didn't want me to live at her place. I really had nowhere to go. I never thought I would of been pregnant at 17. I also saw the baby in the ultrasound. I haven't told anyone that before. I started to cry and no one understood why I was, but its cause of that. Just thinking of it I'm crying. I always said I would never get an abortion and look I got one and that always re-plays in my head. I just can't get over what I've done. I just want to heal already. I want to be the person I was before the abortion. I just can't seem to be that person anymore. I try everyday and then I come crashing down all over again. I hide everything in from everyone cause no one wants to hear it. I have no one to talk to. I have no idea what to do anymore.