First, I started off feeling sick for some of the day then it turned into being sick in the morning and then feeling sick for the rest of the day then sometimes sick at night too. After a while my mum kept saying to me, ‘I bet you’re pregnant’ and I just put it off and said no, then I thought, ‘Ok maybe I am?’ So I got my boyfriend to get me a test and it said I was! But I didn’t tell my mum and then she got me a test and that said I was too, it was all too much to get my head around with all the sickness and everything.
Since I was younger all I’ve ever wanted was a baby then when it happened I didn’t know that to do. Then I went to the doctors to talk about it, to be honest I don’t really know what for, it isn’t like they can tell you what to do. So she give me a referral to an abortion clinic and said you don’t have to go but I will give it to you anyways. So I asked my mum to ring it up for me and they booked me in for 3 days later and then again 2 days after as I was going to have the abortion pill.
All the thought of wanting a baby was put to the back of my mind and I knew it wouldn’t be fair on the baby to keep it as I was only 16 when I found out I was pregnant, and the day before my birthday I had the abortion. It was a [big] experience and I would hate to think anyone having to do that on their own as it is not nice.
At first it all seemed like a weight had been lifted and everything was okay then I started to feel really sad and low and now all I do is think about how many weeks pregnant I would have been and what my baby would look like and I miss so much. Every time I see baby clothes and pregnant women I think to myself ‘What if?’ I know I need to get some help as its really getting me down I’m driving myself crazy.