Well, I didn’t think it was a big deal and that lots of people did it.


 

Well, I didn’t think it was a big deal and that lots of people did it. It happened years ago, my abortion – almost 17 years ago. I was young and using marijuana, along with other things. My boyfriend and I were very unstable. I thought I needed to grow up first.
 
I had it done, and got high right after. Than about 2 months later, I got pregnant again. This time I knew I had to have my baby. And I did. He is 16 now. And I can’t imagine my life without him. But I wonder often, what if I would have had that first baby I was pregnant with? My life would be so different, and my son who is 16 would probably not be.... I am confused…and I have thought of the abortion now and then, but have not felt much about it.
 
Recently, I have started volunteering at a Pregnancy Care clinic that is against abortion. And I am learning a lot. It is required that I do this exercise to work through any kind of issues I may have. I wasn’t sure if I had any....but now that I learn that it is murder…it saddens me. That it was a baby – a human – and I chose to take its life. I know that I am forgiven, and my life is far different today than it was all those years ago...but I want to reconcile anything that needs to be reconciled.